Counselor Says: You Only Need One Song To Improve Your Day

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Given my history with depression, I noticed how easy it had become for me to get depressed over a few things.

For example, when I was in the queue at the grocery store, the cashier prioritized a sexy model behind me. A regular person would have spoken up and called the manager, but I felt so discouraged that I left my cart in the middle of the aisle and did not buy anything. I held on to that feeling for an entire day, causing my reaction time to slow down and annoy other people.

There were also days when I would open my eyes, look outside, and see the gloomy skies. I would only need to stare at it for two minutes before feeling too exhausted to go to work. I would bail on all my appointments that day and stay in bed for as long as possible. Sometimes, I would turn on the TV, even though I was not actually watching whatever was on it.

Whenever I would get these depressing moments, my loved ones had gotten quite good at tolerating me. If I backed out of an occasion at the last minute, they never got mad in front of my face. If I did not feel like going Anywhere, they would not push it. However, I could not get the same treatment at work.

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A Change Of Tunes

One day, I got called to my boss’s office. She said, “I will go straight to the point. I know about your depression and the fact that it has never genuinely fully gone away. I also know that some things or events can trigger it, but you need to find a way to work around it because it is currently affecting your job.”

All I could do was nod before excusing myself and leaving the room. The last thing I wanted to do was lie, and I would be lying if I promised that I could fulfill my boss’s instruction.

I was so preoccupied with that thought that I bumped into our resident counselor in the hallway. I always guarded my emotions around her in fear of seeing through me and deeming me unfit to work in the company. However, this time, when the counselor asked if I was okay, I blurted out, “I’m too far from being okay.”

“Let’s go to my office and talk about it,” she offered.

I agreed to do it because I felt like I had no other options. I knew I needed help, and only a counselor might be able to help me at this point. There was also a nagging thought that I was already helpless, but I pushed that at the back of my head.

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When I stepped into the counselor’s office, an unfamiliar song was blasting through her speakers. It did not sound like a Beyoncé or Mariah Carey or Whitney Houston, but I instantly loved how upbeat it was. As I listened more carefully, I realized that a woman was singing about her inner thoughts regarding a man she liked first but had to let go because her sweet sister fell in love with him.

“What song is this?” I asked.

“Oh, sorry, I’ll turn it off,” the counselor said.

“No, please don’t. I like it. What song is it?” I repeated.

The counselor blushed. “I am what some people call a Broadway musical junkie. This song is called Satisfied from the Hamilton musical. I listen to it on repeat when I need to motivate myself to move or think,” she revealed.

“Wow,” I uttered in awe. “I have been dealing with depressive episodes recently, and they have been affecting my work. Do you think it will help me?”

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“I would say yes. You can find plenty of songs on Spotify or iTunes, but you technically only need a single song to get you moving. In truth, that’s how I manage to absorb all my clients’ issues and ensure that I would not carry them into my house,” the counselor said.

Listening To Feel

On that same day, I listened to Satisfied again until it was time to go home. I repeated the process from the moment I woke up, and I did not feel my mood dip in those 36 glorious hours. At that point, I had already memorized the lyrics and could sing along with Angelica Schuyler – the Hamilton character. I thought that it would diminish the song’s effect on me, but it didn’t.

The first time I changed my go-to song was when my boyfriend split up with me. But then, I learned that Hamilton had a perfect theme for that: Burn. The more I listened to it, the lesser pain I felt due to the breakup.

I might have changed my go-to songs over the years depending on my situation, but I was always one song at a time. If that is not proof that you only need one to feel better, I no longer know what is.